I miss you. But you won't even read this...

I lost a piece of me in you, I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared, but remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see, but lately, I've been on my own. Yeah one, but one by choice. You see, that's a first for me. There's only me, yeah, there's only me. And now I realize for once, It's just me.

And I'll find a way to make it, there's no one left to stop me. Here I go. Can we take it from the top?

So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take this from me. I've already spent living half my life undone. So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take this from me. I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again. I've been finding out that I have what this world has called friends. I've tried to push them all away, they push back and wanna stay and that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me, I'm gonna feel at home. I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone. I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor. I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah, it's just me. It's just me. And I'll find a way to make it. There's no one left to stop me. Here I go. Can we take it from the top?

So why so long? So sad, I wanna be strong. Don't try to take this from me. I've already spent my life living half undone. So why so long? So sad, I wanna be srong.
Don't try to take this from me. I've already spent my life living half undone.

I used to be the one who won before. I used to smile, but don't no more. I'm living just to watch it all go by.

~Blue October